The Czars

Emptiness
Emptiness, how do I search for you
Empty everything and strip the walls
make them colourless, invisible
stop all thought
I am not losing now
I can't feel anything
I can't see you

Try and make me go away tonight
Try and make yourself pretend
I wanted it, I needed it
For the longest time
Try and make yourself pretend
you can't go on tonight
I wanted it, I needed it
For the longest time

I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to hear your voice
I wanted it, I needed it
For the longest time
You don't even have to want
you don't even have to care
I wanted it, I needed it
for the longets time

I need a lot of hope from you
But I forgot, I went away instead
I hope I'm not disturbing you
But I forgot, I'm not who you need

I hope you're not talkin' 'bout yesterday,
'Cause I can't live, I can't live that way
It's all gone now and you don;t know the truth
So you must go now and find the door
I hope I'm not disturbing you

I wanted that. I needed that.
I anticipated this for the longest time

I wnat to be desired by that.
I want it to infatuate me
I want to see if can overcome.
Without saying that

If this is what you want,
then get used to destruction
If this is what you need,
then get used to depression
'Cause there's nobody here gonna sit around,
and listen to you opinion
If this is what you want,
then get used to being alone

when you were a child you laughed and cried.
And then somebody filled you full of pride
And we were all there the day your personality died.
And we all still feel the loss

But feelings are a little bit steep for you.
You've got a lot of things that you must do
Like tapping the sap from the apple trees.
For your own self pity stew

If this is what yuo want,
then get used to rejection
If this is what you need,
then get used to suppression
'Cause there's nobody here gonna sit around,
and listen to your opinion,
If this is what you want,
then get used to being alone

You seem to think you've got this business
figured out inside your head
And all the while you see me,
Falling, For your name

You seem to think it's easier to steal
and cheat instead of love
but you're not getting any younger.
so start your life. It isn't over yet

and all you pouple, who try to understand,
you know, they're not any younger
They start their lives, It isn't over yet.

And so I see you on the road to your own.
But you're not getting any younger
You start your life. It isn't over yet

Your professional, you are kind, you always say the right things
you show up on time, everyday, smiling doing what you do.

I'd like to get in your skin, to see what I could see from there.
But it isn't that way is it, darling?
We're not doing this for you.

The nail that sticks out
must be hammered down, hammered down
Oh, the nail that sticks out
must be hammered down, hammered down

I'd like to do the right thing darling
I'd like to show myself the way to your door
but it isn't that way and it never will be
wait til you see what we've in store for you

refrain or whatever:

it's a bandaid for gangrene, a bandaid for gangrene

Stay here, won't you
I know that you are the best
white force, you know
I cannot be around the rest

I'm gonna make it work this time
throw you out and be just fine
you know that you are the best
I don't care what you wanna do this time
throw yourself away this time
I cannot be around the best

*won't you stay a while

stay here, won't you
I know that you are the best
white force, you know, I cannot be around the rest, for life

that's the way I like to see you offer
that's the way I like to see you offer

Didn't you go out in the morning
Didn't you go out in the evening
I was, ready for anything

I don't mind, I won't find out anyway,
I'm too blind, to see you at all

Can I have what I feel that I must have
Multiply by ten, that's what I think I need
Overshadow your life
Do you like asphyxiation

I don't mind, I won't find out anyway, I'm too blind
I don't mind, I won't find out anyway,
I am too blind, to see you at all

I demand, I demand that I be seen by you
for all my overtime, you want to make it home now, don't you?

I guess I am, the one that really needs to get through to you
because we're wasting time, you spend your life getting through

I thought it over, will you be the one
so I said to myself, I said to myself
are you willing to make the change

I thought it over, will you be the one
so I said to myself, I said to myself
I'm not willing to go there yet

I demand, I demand that I be seen by you
for all my overtime, you want to make it somewhere, don't you?

I had a dream last night
you were the one to make the change
so I said to myself, I said to myself
were you not, willing to lead me now along the path you've chosen
lying to yourself, saying to yourself, I'm not the one

I will not wait around to face my fortune
I will not wait around for something else
You are around me now, you can have anything
that you want

Calling all your resource for another time
that is fine
if I write a note and leave it anywhere
that is fine
you can have anything, you can have anything, that you want

If you've got leavin' on your mind
Tell me now, get it over
Hurt me now, get it over
If you've got leavin' on your mind

If there's a new love in your heart
Tell me now, get it over
Hurt me now, get it over
If there's a new love in your heart

Don't leave me here in a world
Filled with dreams that might have been
Hurt me now, get it over
I may learn to love again

If there's a new love in your heart
Tell me now, get it over
Hurt me now, get it over
If there's a new love in your heart
Hurt me now, get it over
If there's a new love in your heart

What a dream l had
Pressed in organdy Clothed in
crinoline of smoky Burgundy
Softer than the rain
I wandered empty streets
Down past the shop displays
I heard cathedral bells
Tripping down the alley ways
As I walked on
And when you ran to me
Your cheeks flushed with the night
We walked on frosted fields of
juniper and lamplight
I held your hand

And when I a woke and saw you
warm and near I kissed your honey
hair with my grateful tears
Oh I love you girl
I love you I love you

Strange how you've stopped loving me
how you've stopped needing me,
since she came along, oh, how strange

Strange, you changed like night and day
Just up and walked away
when she came along, oh, how strange

Well, I guess that I was just your puppet
you held on a string
to think I thought you really loved me
but look what thoughts can bring

Strange, you're still in all my dreams
oh, what a funny thing
I still care for you, oh, how strange

Long afloat, on shipless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your aisle

and you sang
sail to me
sail to me, let me enfold you

here I am, here I am
waiting to hold you

did I dream, you dreamt about me
were you hare, when I was fox
now my foolish boat, is leaning
broken lovelorn on you rocks

for you sing, touch me not
touch me not, come back tomorrow
Oh my heart, oh my heart
shy's from the sorrow

I'm as puzzled as the newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
should I stand amid the breakers
or should I lie with death my bride
hear me sing
swim to me
swim to me
let me enfold you

here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you

Just one vice is all, is all any man needs to make him happy,
This old man, he's got, he's got all he needs to keep him happy.

Just one lie is all you find you can't read, but you are happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.

Hold on tight
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
You are safe

Just one lie is all, is all any man needs to keep him happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.

Hold on tight
Don't let go
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
You are safe

I'm waiting over here
Just to see you
My love
For the last time
Goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking
Screaming as you try to reach the sky
Goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking
Screaming as you try to reach the sky to fly
I'm begging you tonight
I want to free you
My love
Just one last time forever
Maybe we can change
We always seem to fall again
We are still alive
We have to give up everything and die
And all I want is you
And so it's over now
And I have loved you with my life, but this is the last time

I had a dream last night
A nightmare, to be exact
We couldn't take the heat
And the sweat dripped from our backs
I didn't go, I waited for the
Midnight sun
I didn't want to leave you
'Cause I don't have anyone
Don't paint the sun anymore
Paint the moon and the stars
In an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters with
Shades of gray, just don't let me
Live my life this way
Without you
Let it go, let it go
Let it fall down from the sky
And leave this world behind
I saw you suffering, so I knelt
Down by your side, I saw that you
Were fading, that you were leaving
Your own mind
I gave you water just to soothe your
Failing heart and take away the fear
Of what we both know we will find
Don't paint the sun anymore
Paint the moon, and the stars
In an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters with
Shades of gray, just don't let me
Live my life this way
Without you

If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have someone
To whom you feel you have something to say
Don't think it over, don't let them slip away
He read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough to really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
And made the choice to turn into a leaf
If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have found a love
To whom you feel you have something to say
Don't think it's over, it's gonna be okay
He read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough to really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
And made the choice to turn into a leaf

Lilacs and tiger lilies won't be enough for me when you're gone
Hollyhocks, gladiolas, will never replace this face
In your little pink house with the blue polka dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Bleeding heart, lily of the valley
Snapdragon, rambling rose
You'll never make it in this world
If you're not one of those
In your little pink house with the blue polka dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Diadem, orange sensation
Diorama, bell canto
Baby-Lune and princess, too
But you were the one I chose
In your little pink house with the blue polka dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be

You are beyond my reproach now
You are so cool, you're so flawless now
Perfect approach, impeccable execution
When you are done, can you show me how?
I'm not just a man
I am the man you can't have
I need something else
You are the one who can't help
You've gotten sick on self-satisfaction
And now my patience is wearing thin
You seem surprised, how could this happen?
You knew what I was when you took me in
I'm not just a man
I am the man you can't have
I need something else
And you are the one who can't help

Mesmerizing, hypnotizing, resolve made of steel
You've got all the good cards, baby
Don't say no, and don't say maybe
What you're fighting for, what is it you fight for?
It's okay to not have answers, they don't have them anyway
Save that bullshit for the bedroom, that's where all your best
Work gets done
You're all by yourself, you're your only lover
What do you think you'll do to me that you have not already done?
Why don't you try sticking your dick into all the things that you bought
With your hard-earned cash, you don't know what trash is

I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn't seen before
I wanted to cry tears of joy
But I don't have them anymore
I've wasted them on trifles
Things that just don't mean a thing
And when I come back home to you
My love is what I'll bring
I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn't seen before
I found those tears I lost
'Cause you don't love me anymore
You left me so that you could go and
Have an easy life
One filled with zero trouble and one
Filled with zero strife

You keep on pushing and you'll get your answer
But it won't be the one you want it to be
I think it's funny how we don't get storms around here
Anymore, and the rain, when it comes
It tastes like nothing
I want you to remember me
For things I never did
'Cause no one in this world deserves
To see my happiness
I know what it's supposed to be like
To be young
But it is not the way I thought it would be
My paranoia functioned like a broken mirror
To distort and destroy any clarity, and what's more
I want you to give back to me
The child I never was
'Cause I believed what I was told
Like everybody does

I thought that I knew where my heart, it had landed
I thought that I'd worked it all out
I thought you'd be willing to hold me at night and
I thought that that's what I would want
But I was a blind man in love with a demon and I couldn't figure it out
Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have stared to strip all the sense from my mind
This desert, it seems to have no plans of ending
So I have to make it my home
You gave me a chance, now I know I can't take it
I'd rather just be here alone
Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind
I have let you play me and take me to places that I thought that I couldn't find
Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind
Don't talk to me about love
This has nothing to do with that word
This is just good old-fashioned exploitation
You're not serious
So just like a dog that returns to his vomit
I guess that I do it because
I get no more pleasure from self-deprecation
It's not as much fun as it was
Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind

Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can't feel
At all
Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can't feel at all
And if you think you need more pain
You can get all that you need
You can get it all for free
Just keep doing what you are
Did somebody tell you that they loved you, then they said they never loved you?
How did you feel?
How did you feel?
It doesn't really matter how you felt 'cause
You can't make them love you, that is for sure
That is for real
Pain
Do you really think that it won't kill you?
'Cause I know that it will kill you
Maybe not now
But you'll find out how
Don't tell me that you want to end up just like
Every other sucker, that would be bad, that would
Be sad
Now, baby, please don't misunderstand me
'Cause I don't really give a damn
I saw you had a problem, and I wanted to help
'Cause that's just how I am
It really doesn't matter that much to me
Pain

What a dream l had
Pressed in organdy Clothed in
crinoline of smoky Burgundy
Softer than the rain
I wandered empty streets
Down past the shop displays
I heard cathedral bells
Tripping down the alley ways
As I walked on
And when you ran to me
Your cheeks flushed with the night
We walked on frosted fields of
juniper and lamplight
I held your hand

And when I a woke and saw you
warm and near I kissed your honey
hair with my grateful tears
Oh I love you girl
I love you I love you

Strange how you've stopped loving me
how you've stopped needing me,
since she came along, oh, how strange

Strange, you changed like night and day
Just up and walked away
when she came along, oh, how strange

Well, I guess that I was just your puppet
you held on a string
to think I thought you really loved me
but look what thoughts can bring

Strange, you're still in all my dreams
oh, what a funny thing
I still care for you, oh, how strange

You don't know what love is
Until you've learned the meaning of the Blues
Until you've loved a love you had to lose
You don't know what love is

You don't know how lips hurt
Until you've kissed and had to pay the cost
Until you've flipped your heart and you have lost
You don't know what love is

Lilacs and tiger-lilies
Won't be enough for me when you're gone
Hollyhocks, gladiolas
Could never replace your face
In your little pink house
With the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was
And what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be

Bleeding heart, lily-of-the-valley
Snapdragon, rambling rose
You'll never make it in this world
If you're not one of those

In your little pink house
With the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was
And what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be

Diadem, orange sensation
Diorama, bell canto
Baby-Lune, and princess too
But you were the one I chose

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise

And I love the lies you've told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes

This is not ecstasy, but it's better than cocaine.
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
but I'm not equipped to play this game

You know your words
They don't mean anything to me
They only serve to fatten up the prey

And when it's time to take them to the slaughterhouse
you slice their throats, continue on your way
This is not jeopardy
and it's not your high school prom
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to be your mom

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes

Just one vice is all, is all any man needs to make him happy,
This old man, he's got, he's got all he needs to keep him happy.

Just one lie is all you find you can't read, but you are happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.

Hold on tight
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
You are safe

Just one lie is all, is all any man needs to keep him happy,
My advice: why not take two or three if you're feeling lucky.

Hold on tight
Don't let go
Let it eat you from inside
Take you away
You are safe

This blessing in disguise, somebody to despise
Let's you know how much, you really know of love
It's such a loaded word, corrupted and absurd
Twisted out of tune.

Lost, I'm beginning to know the cost of trying to read your thoughts
but now I know your thoughts.

You are worried about you, I wonder how you make it through
Nagging day to day, feeling this way.
And the way you look at life as tedium and strife
but let me tell you this...

Bliss, I really wondered about your kiss, the flavor of your lips
Before this can occur, strikes a nerve

The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference, what's the difference?
The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference, what's the difference?
The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference?

You, are worried about you.

Lost, the ungainly albatross that you carry like a cross
for those you shed a tear, they are gone and cannot hear

don't say that, make them understand
don't try that, it just makes everything seem so useless
honestly, no one seems to hurt you like you do
tell me please, how does anyone take so much abuse?

look at me, look straight into my eyes
if I'm acting up, I promise you won't expect a reply
honestly, no one seems to hurt you, like you do
tell me please, how does anyone take so much abuse?

I'm the remains of what used to be a human
The transformation perfectly formed by something else
The skin, the bones, the insides falling down around you
The creature that you seem to be is a copy of something else

Baby did you try to speak, did you try to understand me?
No I'm not mad at you, just thought you were with someone else
I asked a question once but I didn't hear the answer
Did you even realize what you put back on the shelf?

So many died
To save your life

I'm the remains of what used to be a human
The transformation perfectly formed by something else
The skin, the bones, the insides falling down around you
The creature that you seem to be is a copy of something else

So many died
To save your life

Baby I just didn't know who you were at all
Baby I just didn't see what you had to offer
Baby I just wanna know where we are tonight
Baby I just wanna see you ask me on a date
Do you know the heart?
Do you that it can be destroyed?
You can make it go away
You can make it shrivel up and die

Take a look at me
Give me everything you've got
If it's not enough
Make me everything you're not

It's just a side effect of loving you
A nasty soundtrack to the city
He says the effects will recover soon
The situation is dire
You know that he's a liar

Last night I was taking a walk along the river
When I saw him together with a young boy
And the look that he gave made me shiver
'Cause he always used to look at me that way
And I thought maybe
I should walk right up to him and say
Ahhaha, it's a game he likes to play
Look into his angel eyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart
and you must pay the price
Look into his angel eyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out
he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep
into those angel eyes
Oh no no no no
Sometimes when I'm lonely
I sit and think about him
And it hurts to remember all the good times
When I thought I could never live without him
And I wonder does it have to be the same
Ahhaha, when I see him,
will it bring back all the pain?
Ahhaha, how can I forget that name?
Look into his angel eyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart
and you must pay the price
Look into his angel eyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out
he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into those angel eyes
no no no no no

You don't know what love is
Until you've learned the meaning of the Blues
Until you've loved a love you had to lose
You don't know what love is

You don't know how lips hurt
Until you've kissed and had to pay the cost
Until you've flipped your heart and you have lost
You don't know what love is

Strange how you've stopped loving me
how you've stopped needing me,
since she came along, oh, how strange

Strange, you changed like night and day
Just up and walked away
when she came along, oh, how strange

Well, I guess that I was just your puppet
you held on a string
to think I thought you really loved me
but look what thoughts can bring

Strange, you're still in all my dreams
oh, what a funny thing
I still care for you, oh, how strange

Long afloat, on shipless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your aisle

and you sang
sail to me
sail to me, let me enfold you

here I am, here I am
waiting to hold you

did I dream, you dreamt about me
were you hare, when I was fox
now my foolish boat, is leaning
broken lovelorn on you rocks

for you sing, touch me not
touch me not, come back tomorrow
Oh my heart, oh my heart
shy's from the sorrow

I'm as puzzled as the newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
should I stand amid the breakers
or should I lie with death my bride
hear me sing
swim to me
swim to me
let me enfold you

here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you

Long afloat, on shipless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your aisle

and you sang
sail to me
sail to me, let me enfold you

here I am, here I am
waiting to hold you

did I dream, you dreamt about me
were you hare, when I was fox
now my foolish boat, is leaning
broken lovelorn on you rocks

for you sing, touch me not
touch me not, come back tomorrow
Oh my heart, oh my heart
shy's from the sorrow

I'm as puzzled as the newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
should I stand amid the breakers
or should I lie with death my bride
hear me sing
swim to me
swim to me
let me enfold you

here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you