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| 1. |
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Losing a whole year
Losing a whole year I remember you and me used to spend The whole goddamned day in bed Losing a whole year Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs The phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid Losing a whole year Rich daddy left you with a parachute Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute But your daddy left you with no love You touch everything with a velvet glove and Now you want to try a life of sin You want to be down with the down and in Always copping my truths I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used And now I realise that you never heard One goddamned word I ever said Losing a whole year Losing a whole year Took your stuff and put it in the basement When I found out what the smile on your face meant I've seen you pop that check Craning your neck at the car wreck It always seems the juice used to flow In the car in the kitchen you were good to go Now we're stuck with the tube A sink full of dishes and some aqua lube And I remember you and me used to spend The whole goddamned day in bed Losing a whole year And if it's not the defense then you're on the attack When you start talking I hear the Prozac Convinced you've found your place With the pierced queer teens in cyberspace When you were yourself it tasted sweet But it sours into a routine deceit Well this drama is a bore And I don't want to play no more Losing a whole year I remember you and me used to spend The whole goddamned day in bed |
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| 2. |
| 3:49 |
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I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm,
And there's a demon in my brain starts to overwhelm, And there it goes, my last chance for peace, I lay me down, but I get no release, I try to keep awake, I try to swim beneath, But still I find this narcolepsy slides, Into another nightmare. And there's a demon in my head who starts to play, A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday, And I hold my breath 'till it's more than I can take, And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake, I try to keep awake, I try to keep awake, But still I find this Narcolepsy slides, into another nightmare. I read dead Russian authors, Volumes at a time, I write everything down except what's on my mind, Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound, And then I know that I will neer get back out, And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink, In a crowded room where the glasses clink, And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep, Because that keeps me from felling asleep, How'd you like to be alone and drowning, How'd you like to be alone and drowning, How'd you like to be alone and drowning, Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide slides, Into another nightmare, Keep awake. Keep awake, Keep awake, Still I find this narcolepsy slides... |
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| 3. |
| 4:29 |
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I'm packed
and I'm holding I'm smiling She's living she's golden she lives a me says she lives a me Ovation her own motivation She comes round and she goes down on me And I make her smile like a drug for you Do ever what you want to do Coming over you Keep on smiling what we go through One stop to the rhythm that divides you And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse Chop another line like a coda with a curse come on like a freak show takes the stage We give them the games we play say I want something else To get me through this Semi charmed kind of life Baby Baby I want something else I'm not listening when you say Goodbye The sky was gold it was rose I was taking sips sorry through my nose And I wish it could get back there Some place back there Smiling in the pictures you would take Doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break It won't stop I won't come down I keep stock with a tick tock rhythm a bump for the drop And then I bumped up I took the hit that I was given Then I bumped again then I bumped again How do I get back there To the place who I fell asleep inside you How do I get myself back to The place where you said I want something else to get me through this semi charmed kind of life Baby Baby I want something else I'm not listening when you say goodbye I believe in the sand beneath my toes beach gives a feeling earthy feeling I believe in the faith that grows And the four right chords can make me cry When I'm with you I feel like I could die And that would be all right all right When the plane came in she said she was crashing The velvet it rips in the city We tripped on the urge to feel alive But now I'm struggling to survive The days you were wearing that velvet dress You're the priestess I must confess Those little red panties they pass the test a Slide up around the belly face down on the mattress One and you hold me And we are broken Still it's all that I want to do Just a little now Feel myself head made of the ground I'm scared I'm not coming down And I won't run for my life She's got her just now locked now in a smile But nothing is all right all right And I want something else to get me through this life Baby I want something else not listening when you say Goodbye goodbye goodbye The sky was gold it was rose I was taking sips sorry through my nose And I wish it could get back there Some place back there in the place is you the star |
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| 4. |
| 4:33 |
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I wish you would step back from
that ledge my friend, You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in, And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand. I would understand, The angry boy, a bit too insane, Icing over a secret pain, You know you don't belong, You're the first to fight, You're way too loud, You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud, I know something's wrong, Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in, And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, I would understand. Well he's on the table, And he's gone to code, And I do not think anyone knows, What they are doing here, And your friends have left, You've been dismissed, I never thought it would come to this, And I, I want you to know, Everyone's got to face down the demons, Maybe today, We can put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in, And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, I would understand, I would understand... Can you put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, I would understand... |
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| 5. |
| 3:10 |
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Can I Graduate,
Can I look into the faces that I meet, Can I get my punk-ass off the street, I've been living on for so long, Can I Graduate, To the bastard talking down to me, Your whipping boy calamity, Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down, Can I Graduate, Echo fading, We can't let go, She goes walking by in slow mo', Sell your Heart out for a buck, Go on, Fade out, Before I get stuck. Talking to somebody like you, Do you live the days you go through, Will this song live on long after we do, Can I Graduate. Can I look into the faces that I meet, Can 1 get my punk-ass off the street. Won't die on the vine I want to knock it all down, Can I Graduate, Echo fading, Candle blow, Did you flash out long ago, Cross my fingers, I don't know someone poked you down below. Can I Graduate, Can I get my punk-ass off the street, Can I look into the faces that I meet, I'm not waiting here for you to die, Will this song live on long after we do. |
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| 6. |
| 4:14 |
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I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing, I wonder What are we fighting for When I say out loud, I wanna get out of this I wonder, is there anything I'm gonna miss I wonder, how it's gonna be When you don't know me How's it gonna be When you're sure I'm not there Hows it gonna be When there's no one there to talk to Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it gonna be How's it gonna be Where we used to laugh There's a shouting match Sharp as a thumbnail scratch A silence I can't ignore Like the hammock by the doorway We spent time in Swings empty I don't see lightning like last fall When it was always about to hit me I wonder how's it gonna be When it goes down How's it gonna be When you're not around How's it gonna be When you found out there was was nothing Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it gonna be How's it gonna be When you don't know me anymore How's it gonna be Want to get myself back in again THe soft dive of oblivion I wanna taste the salt of your skin The soft dive of oblivion How's it gonna be When you don't me anymore How's it gonna be (Repeat |
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| 7. |
| 4:58 |
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It's all in your mind, She said the darkness and the light,
The clock, it bleeds for you but you never got the time in right, I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright. All hands on deck boys 'cause this ship was made to sink. Your swabber salutes you now, but I know what he's thinking. I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright. Thanks a lot, The clothes she wears mis-fit, and she's nervous when she speaks, Her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks. I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, I'm the one for you, 'Cause I know all the dirty things you like to do, I'm the fear in your eyes, I'm the fire in your flies, I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head. Thanks a lot. |
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| 3:00 |
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The rise and fall of my sloppy love, The smatterings, and splatterings,
They'll get you. I'm not the one you were thinking of, Maybe you thought I'd call, Instead of crashing down your hall. Hold me down, but I'll find out. You know you will never get what you need, Blue Diamond strike 'em anywhere, First we caffeinate, then incinerate, We'll get you. And sparks will fly in the summer air, Did you pull out of your stall, Maybe I'll see you after all. Say we don't. Know who we are. We say no, I live my life like the burning man, Like a burning man, Like a burning man, And I won't get enough 'Till my legs are broken, The stars they shine. In an empty void. Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy, He'll get you. Mr. Death catches all someday. Baby I thought you'd call. Or leave a light on in the hall, Hold me down, But I'll find out. We say no, I live my life like a burning man, And I won't get enough, till my legs are broken. |
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| 3:52 |
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Hey, will you stay awhile.
My smile will not misleading, Cause I've been alone, And my faith turned to stone, Still there's something in you, I believe in, Close to the pierce, I go wild and fierce, Still I let you be, I feel you next to me, 'Cause outside I feel, A wind it starts to blow, I'm taken in your undertow. Everything is fine But I'm lonely all the time, All I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through, Is that good for you, Is that good for you. You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go, Is that good for you, Hey, child please stay awhile. My smile will not mislead you. And roll me out. I go wild with doubt, I grab at you, I can't stop grabbing at you, Cause I feel you cross my mind in disarray, intoxicated ricochet, There's nothing wrong, just don't take too long, All I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through. Is that good for you, Is that good for you. You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go, Is that good for you. |
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| 3:07 |
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Through the satellites, I fight with you,
That local brew is spillin', I know just how you spend your time. I want to get my hands on him, Somebody's party in a London flat, You're where it's at and I know, You want to see me loose my mind, I'm tired of chasing after you The is jealous, See me on the dark side of your mind, I want to get my hands on him, To a club that's pounding in the London rain, The world could end We wouldn't hear it. I know just what's on your mind, I see the way your face has changed, We're no good for each other, You tricked me into coming here, So let go, l don't want to go to London, I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London, To live there, I don't want to go to London, All your friends afflicted, I don't want to go to London. She's addicted, I saw you with him, I know where you've been, That nose is broken wide open, Your way has got me out of line. I want to get my hands on him. You're so sick just to make me prove, It takes a fight to move you, I know just what's on your mind. It's been this way a thousand years, We torture each other. So why the hell did you call me here, And you know, l don't want to go to London, I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London, To live there, I don't want to go to London, All your friends afflicted, I don't want to go to London. She's addicted. l don't want to go to London, I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London, 'Cause you're not there. Even when I see you, You're somewhere else in London. |
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| 4:29 |
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I've seen suckers loose themselves in the games they learn to play,
Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away. People always take a step away from what is true, That's why I like you around, I want you. Yeah you do... you make me want you. An open invitation to the dance, Happenstance set the vibe that we are in, No apology because my urge is genuine, And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine. Here I am and I want to take a hit, Of your scent and it bit, So deep into my soul, I want you. You do you do, you make me want you. Send me all your vampires, And I can't get enough, And I can't get enough, The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave, The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save, You want to know how deeply my soul goes, Deeper than bones, I want you, And I can't get enough. After we did it by the window sill, Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky, presently in the quilt that your mother made, And a candle burns to fight off the gloom, I said to live in this way is not for the meek, but you talk real soft and kiss me on the cheek. And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep, There will be no regrets when the worms come, And they will surely come. You do you do, I want you, Send me all your vampires, I want you |
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| 4:57 |
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Everything is quiet, Since you're not around,
And I live in the numbness now. In the background. I do the things we did before, I walk Haight Street to the store, And they say where's that crazy girl? You don't get drunk on red wine, And light no more, 'Cause I don't see you anymore, Since the hospital, But the plans I make still have you in them, Then you come swimming into view, And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do, The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you, I only know this cause I am, Way back down, In the background. Words they come and memories all repeat, I lift your head while, They change the hospital sheets, I would never lie to you, No I would never lie to you, No I felt you long after we were through. And the plans I make still have you in them, Cause you come swimming into view, And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do, The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you, I only know this cause I am, Way back down, In the background. |
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| 4:22 |
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Summer time and the wind is blowing, Outside in lower Chelsea.
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city, The sun is always in my eyes, it crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch, When I came to visit you, That's when I knew, I could never have you, I knew that before you did, Still I'm feeling stupid, And there's this burning, Like there's always been, I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive. Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by, Cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind, And you smile, And say the world doesn't fit with you. I don't believe you, You're so serene. Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, Guiltless and free, I hope you take a piece of me with you, And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in, I would like to build something, You know it's never going to happen, And there's this burning, Like there's always been, I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive, And there's this burning, There is this burning. Where's the soul. I want to know, New York City is evil. The surface is everything, but I could never do that, Someone would see through that. And this will be the last time, We'll be friends again. I'll get over you and you'll wonder, Who I am. And there's this burning, Like there's always been, I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive, I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out, On the water Alone, Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again, Summer dies and swells rise, The sun goes down in my eyes, See this rolling wave, Darkly coming to take me, Home, And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive. |
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| 14. |
| 5:19 |
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Every thought that I repent,
There's another chip you haven't spent, And you're cashing them all in, Where do we begin. To get clean again, Can we get clean again. I walk home alone with you, And the mood you're born into, Sometimes you let me in, And I take it on the chin. I can't get clean again. I want to know, Can we get clean again, The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car that took you farther than you thought you'd ever want to go, We can't get back again, We can't get back again, She takes a drink and then she waits, The alcohol it permeates, And soon the cells give way, And cancels out the day. I can't keep it all together, I know...I can't keep it all together. And the siren's song that is your madness, Holds a truth I can't erase, All alone on your face. Every glamorous sunrise, Throws the planets out of line, A star sign out of whack, A fraudulent zodiac. And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room, You let me down, I said it, Now I'm going down, And you're not even around. And I said no... I can't keep it all together, I know...I can't keep it all together, And there's a memory of a window, Looking through I see you. Searching for something, I could never give you, And there's someone who understands you more than I do. A sadness I can't erase. All alone on your face. |
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